Hi everyone. I am a sufferer of major depression. I am writing despite the fact that I am currently in a depressive mode. Ok. Depression. Pain. Suicidal ideation. It all sucks sucks sucks. But, I have a child. Deep down, I don’t feel like I have the choice to end it on my own. I envy those who have, or seem to, have that choice. This is when I’m I’m at my lowest. Problem is I reach the low moments often. Especially when there’s a lot of stress, my meds aren’t working or just apparently for no reason it comes crashing down on me just when I think I’m finally rid of it.
I love my simple life. People tell me to be grateful for the good in my life. The fact is these people just don’t fuckin get that, mentally, I know that! …. to be continued.